Can't get close enough

For as long as I can remember my daughter has always been very affectionate. I knew at a very young age that physical touch and quality time were her love languages. For those who are not familiar with love languages, these are how a person feels loved by others. When she was around 4 years old, she was sitting beside me on the couch watching TV, she kept scooting closer and closer, so finally I asked her "sweetie what are you doing?", I will never forget her response "mommy sometimes I just don't feel like I can get close enough". Although  my love language is not the same as hers what my daughter said did speak to my own love language, and made me feel appreciated and affirmed. I have never felt like that with too many people, but there have been times I have felt that way in my relationship with God.

I know God is always near but sometimes I  feel like I can't get close enough. I long to be able to see Him, to reach out and touch Him,  to linger embraced in His arms. God knows how much we want and need this in our lives, that is why prayer is such a vital part of our christian walk,  because, for now, this is the only way to connect with the Father.

My mom left us at a very young age and although God blessed us with another mother,  there still remained a longing to have a relationship with my birth mom and still does today. Abandonment issues? Perhaps. I believe that nothing can replace a part of our life that was meant for someone else. Just as that part can only be filled by my birth mom, I believe God created a longing in us that can only be filled by Him.

I have learned, in those moments, when I have felt that I just can't get close enough, I simply need to linger longer in my prayer time. One thing I can always count on is that He never fails to show up and so I wait on Him till He does, scooting closer and closer.