Thanks......

Larry just stopped by the office and now my heart is heavy and my anxiety is high and its taking all I've got to hold back the tears as I try to process him being let go from his job at the hospital. Truth is, and they had enough information to know this, he just did not have that hands on experience they were looking for having worked as a transport paramedic for the last 15 years. Now what?

Well a loss is a loss and there will be some grieving and all that goes with it but more so for him than me. I have shared with you all before that Larry is bipolar and struggles with depression, so please keep him and our family in your prayers as we face this fork in the road. I just don't want him to sink so low into depression that its difficult to climb out, I told him to stay busy and find whatever work he can I don't even care if its at McDonalds, anything is better than nothing until something better comes along. The point is for him to stay busy so that he does not beat himself into a dark hole!! 

I have  that "elephant on my chest" feeling right now, and I need it to go away right now! I  keep telling myself , over and over, "this too shall pass"  trusting that God will sustain us as He has always done. I so love that He is my Rock and my Fortress. I love that He is my Provider. I love that He is always present in the good times and the bad. I love that He is faithful. Mostly I love that He loves me and carries me through the storms of this life , my Strength , my Comforter. I love that while writing to you all, in this moment, I can feel the weight of this elephant becoming lighter and lighter. God is so good to me. 

Thank you all for being apart of my life. I thank you for your friendships and I could never thank you enough for all your prayers. I believe there are many different levels of friendship, but whatever placings we have in one another's lives the best way to value these friendships is by praying for one another, especially when a friendship faces a rocky road for whatever reason. Prayer is so powerful that it touches and blesses the one praying and the one being prayed for. It grows the love between us and it heals  hurts between us too. Praying for one another keeps us soft at heart so that anger and bitterness cannot grow there. It's not always easy to pray for someone who has angered or hurt you, but I can assure you that is when we need to pray for them the most, for our own emotional, mental and spiritual health as well as theirs. 

The best friendships are those grown in the fertilized soil of our prayers for one another, so pray for me as I pray for you and may the fruit of our friendships produce a sweet and bountiful harvest.

Have a great day my friends!