Tuesday, July 19, 2016

Occupied.......


I am struggling to sleep tonight. Could be the coffee I drank around 5pm but more likely that my thoughts are occupied on my sister Angie.
There is nothing more troubling than the unknown and yet sometimes the unknown seems far better than the feared possibilities of the could be. What a terrifying place to be of wanting a resolution but feeling it is better not to know.
How my heart goes out to so many who are crippled with fear thinking that not knowing somehow makes it not real. However, in many cases, the earlier you know the better your chances can be for a more positive outcome.
I lay awake with prayers of healing, prayers that the medical team will, once and for all, discover what is causing the issues my sister has been dealing with for so long now, issues that have restricted her normal day to day living. "Thy will be done" is uttered reluctantly knowing His will does not always mirrow our own will in any given situation,  regardless of His ability to miraculously step in and be the great Physician and Healer.
I know that in times like these even the greatest amount of faith can be shaken as we question why God chooses to heal this person but not another. However it is in times like these that our faith must be greater and we must trust , despite our current state of emotions, that His plan, good or bad, is and always will be the best plan because only He knows what our tomorrows hold.
I pray, whatever His will is in my sisters situation that He will cover her with peace and cradle her closely in His arms, that His presence will be so over- whelmingly felt in that hospital that nothing can shake her faith or trust in Him and even more so make it greater.  I pray that this experience wells up such desire in her to draw much closer to Him that the effects of His love spreads like a virus through her to everyone who comes in contact with her.
God is good even when life doesn't work out the way we want it to, but it's not our lives to plan but ours to live out His plan.
Thank you all for your prayers.

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