Hanging up my cape..........

I want to thank all of my friends who have reached out to me this week after my last post,  some of you did not waste anytime swooping in to provide strength and encouragement, I am truly blessed to have friends like you!

I would like to say I am back on top, but I suspect this will be a journey, not a quick trip. The weight of living can get overwhelming, and sometimes we don't realize how much it is weighing us down until the load is so heavy that we can't get out from under it alone and need help. Truth is I have trouble recognizing, not just that I need help, but that it is okay to ask for help.

I am currently reading "Uninvited" by Lysa Terkeurst, last night I read something  that really hit me. Like many of you I  enjoy doing bible studies and trying to deepen my relationship with God. Lysa pointed out that with all we do to find God, sometimes we fail to just be with Him. Here is how she explained it :

 "Imagine a little girl running with a cup in her hand sloshing out all it contains. She thinks what will refill her is just ahead. Just a little farther. She presses on with sheer determination and clenched teeth and an empty cup clutched tight. She keeps running toward an agenda He never set and one that will never satisfy. She sees Him and holds her cup. But she catches only a few drops as she runs by Him, because she didn't stop long enough to be filled up. Empty can't be tempered with mere drops. The tragic truth is what will fill her-what will fill us- isn't the accomplishment or the next relationship ahead. That shiny thing is actually a vacuum that sucks us in and sucks us dry....but never had the ability to refill. I should know because that is where I was. There's no kind of empty quite like this empty: where your hands are full but inside you're nothing but and exhausted shell."

Simply put, this is where I am, and perhaps many of you too. I spend so much time in service to God, that I don't spend enough time just being with God. Lysa went on to say;

"Since my fast-paced chase had gotten me into this mess, I knew it would take slow moments to get me out of it. I needed to reconnect with the One who knows how to breathe life and love back into depleted and dead places. Jesus doesn't participate in the rat race. He's into the slower rhythms of life, like abiding, delighting, and dwelling - all work that require us to trust Him with our place and pace."

We, as women and mothers, stay so busy with this or that, that we seldom slow down long enough to truly be filled and refreshed. We are constantly running on fumes. Who set this pace for us? It wasn't God, our Creator. When did we get off script and how can we get back on HIS script for our lives?

SLOW DOWN! STOP! ABIDE! DELIGHT! DWELL! I am not talking about down time. I am talking about knee time. Our cups will never get filled in down time, we may fill refreshed, but is a temporary feeling what we need? I need more.

I have decided that I am hanging up my cape, I don't want to feel like I need to be the superhero in my life and those around me, I just want to be the sidekick to the only real superhero there should be - God. If we would JUST do our parts as women, mothers, wives, etc., etc., eventually those around us would have step up and do theirs. This is what I will trust God for in my life, that I will do my part and He will find a way to get others to do theirs or re-wire me not to take the weight of it all upon myself. I am good with whatever He decides.

Have a good week everyone.